Instructions

"Prepare your outside work, Make it fit for yourself in the field; And afterward build your house." - Proverbs 24:27

Lord God,

I am a blessed woman. My very name declares Your promise, Your oath, Your covenant. I am favored and loved, not only by my earthly father, who would choose his blindness over my shame, his pride over my education, or my partner, who invited and paid for me to go to this Ancient Paths seminar, but by You, O Lord, Creator of the Universe, Lover of my Soul, who made me fearfully and wonderfully, who knows the number of hair on my head, who knit me in my mother's womb, who knew me before I was even conceived. You love me, O God, with an everlasting love. You have spared my family from evil. And You have opened my eyes to what we need to break. By the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ, Lord, break the generational curse brought about by the unrighteousness of desecrating a marriage. And the generational curse brought about by dabbling in the arts we shouldn't. Release us from the victim spirit hounding our family's finances. Release us from whatever bondage keeps us unmarried.

Choosing life

Dear Lord,

Thank You for the learnings and for the friends. Thank You that he's putting boundaries. Thank You that I will miss him. Thank You for lunch today. Lord, I choose life, even if my heart wants to curl up and sleep. Fill me with Your Spirit, Lord. Lord Jesus, be my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit, Lord. Fill me to overflow that it will just overflow from my mouth and my hands and my feet and my smile.

Lord, I resolve to rejoice this day. I resolve to live this day. This day, I will choose to not let my emotions dictate my day. I only have lunch today. But I will be beautiful today. My worth is not in the success of my business. Is not in my ability to run a business. My worth is that I am Yours and You have called me.

Amen.

Salt of the Earth

“You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.

“You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

Matthew 5:13-16

Dear Lord,

Thank You for the beautiful new day! You have made it and so I will rejoice and be glad in it. May the heavens and the earth sing out Your praise. May honor and glory be Yours forever and ever. Amen.

Lord, please bless these hands as I go about my work today. I am about to pursue some paths, but let doors be opened where You want me to go, and let doors be closed where You don't want me to go. I know the values and lessons You have taught me, and so I know in my mind that the thing with the schools that I am pursuing may be the best thing to do given my situation. Strengthen my heart, Lord. Oh, Lord Jesus, come into my heart be my Lord and Savior. Saturate my heart and soul with Your Spirit. Baptize me with Your fire. Let me burn with love for You.

O Lord, let me be Yours. Be my Lord, my King. Let me do things for the good of Your Kingdom. I pray for my family, Lord. Help us with our financial situation. I know trials like these strengthen the family bond. But be always in our midst. And open the floodgates of Heaven, Lord, and bless my family abundantly that we, too, may be blessings to others.

You spoke, Lord, of being faithful in the small things. What small things can I do to be generous? What small things can I do to be salt and light to the earth? What small things can I do to show my family I love them?

I lift up to You this day. May You bless the day and all the interactions that happen within it. This I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Losing One's Soul

Mark 8:36 NKJV

For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?

Lord,

I may have lost a bit of mine. I don't like this life I've created. The one You gave me is wonderful, but I've tainted it with my ambition, fear, and lack of love. And because my family loves me, they suffer for my sake. I'm trying to get a job still. But I still have obligations. Please help me with them, Lord. Show me the way.

God's Arm is Long Enough

Numbers 11:23 NKJV

And the Lord said to Moses, “Has the Lord ’s arm been shortened? Now you shall see whether what I say will happen to you or not.”

Lord, my heart fails. I have made a mistake and I feel bad about the solutions. Ah, Lord, that You would grant me the resource to keep my word. But to keep my word means more burden on my father. Lord, what must I do? Speak to me, Lord. Tell me You are there. Tell me You haven't left me, and You have a plan for me. You are the God who saves. You are the God of abundance. You make miracles. You love those who love You. Doubt sometimes creeps in my heart. But I want to believe. I want to have faith and know that everything will be fine because You are my heavenly father.

Wait on Him

Whoever keeps the fig tree will eat its fruit; So he who waits on his master will be honored.
Proverbs 27:18 NKJV

Lord,

I know that this condition I am in is because of my need to succeed. I didn't think things through. I didn't do my research properly. And so now, I am in this state, and my family suffers with me. Forgive me, Lord. I want to get out of this. But I don't know how. I will wait on You. I don't know what to do with things, whether I should continue to push or let go. Speak to me, Lord. I am willing to give it up if you need me to. I've also applied at this school. I lift this up to you, Lord. Give it to me if You will it. But speak to me. I will check on my people and friends, as You said. I will know how they are. Speak to me, Lord. Continue to speak to me. This I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Fruits and Maturity

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law."

Galatians 5:22-23

My friend posted a question on Facebook about what makes one a woman versus a girl. And another friend replied this very insightful comment about restraint and grace. Then when I turned to my daily devotional this morning, still with thoughts of the woman vs girl conversation in my head, this verse was what I found.