I am sorry I have not been speaking to You much recently. But I had the opportunity to pray to You with Cam yesterday. And You really have called me to You. Keep me close, my God. Don't let me stray too far away. I have been far from You lately. But I want to remain in You. Lord, what is the identity You want me to have? How do You want me to be? Show me. I want to be that. I still have dead portions in my heart, but You are the God who brings people back from the dead. Bring me back to life. And let me be the salt and light to the world that You wish us to be. I need to see how it looks like. I'm floundering. Teach me, Lord. I want to be confident and beautiful again. I want to be the flavor in people's lives because I operate in Your love. I want to be the light, the hope. When people see me, let them see You. Let me be an agent of encouragement. Let me be love. Teach me to love. I know that if I want to be loved, I also need to learn to love. Warm my heart. Spark passion back in me. I want to be love, just as You want us to be. Open my eyes, Lord. Give me a mentor. Someone to look up to. Give me a clear picture of who You want me to be. I need to know. I want to be clear and sure of my identity.
I'm off to church, dear Father. Thank You for everything and I love You.
