Peace to Those on Whom His Favor Rests

“Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.” (Luke 2:14 NIV)

Dear Lord,

Forgive me my darkness. But thank You for Your love. Thank You for everything You have blessed me with. I am ungrateful. But I don't want to be anymore. You have given me a father who loves me, who saves me and protects me. You have given me a mother who is strong and who doesn't give up. You have given me siblings who support me in all my endeavors. You have given me Komikasi, and people who are loyal to the company. You have given me friends. You have given me people who like me. And here I am, ungrateful. And I am sorry about that. I am blessed. Very very much blessed. And I thank You. More than those, Lord, You have called me to You. You have given me Your Son to die for my darkness so I can stand here in Your Presence, so that this ungrateful whiny imperfect girl can stand in Your Most Holy Presence. Forgive me, my God. I repent. I am ashamed of my ungratefulness, and how I continue to entertain the darkness. You have given me a new day. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Thank You for coffee with this man. Thank You for letting me help with this school. Thank You for the opportunity tonight. You have blessed me. I am favored. Lord, please help me to fight off the darkness. Help me to do what You've told me to do, and rejoice. Let Your peace truly reign in my heart. Because only Your peace will quiet the raging monster inside me. Teach me to enjoy what you've given me. 

And I pray, dear God, I pray for the right man to marry. Lord, please speak to me about this. Enlighten me. I really like someone but I'm not sure if he likes me, too. And how will I know Your will about this, Lord? Should I hold on and wait? Should I entertain the other people who are showing interest? I know I have to decide, but this is a field I don't know much about. I'm having coffee this morning with someone else. Please protect us. Let me not hurt this man, for even if my heart is set on someone else, this man is good and kind. I wish to befriend him for now and know more about him. Lord, please help me.

Lord, I lift my heart to You. I don't know what to do. I need Your help here. And what else, Lord, have I not surrendered to You. Please bring my attention to that, Lord. I wish to surrender to You. Tell me agin what You want me to do, my God. For I am Yours. You told me to rejoice, Lord. And that, I will do my best to do. I will try again today, Lord. I will love the mud for that shows me that You've blessed me. Help me change this heart, Lord, that it will no longer be ungrateful, but joyful in its peace in you.

This I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

And my God Repeats It

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Philippians 1:6 NIV)

And my God repeats this today. That He who began a good work in me will finish what He started. Dear Lord, I am indecisive. I play when I don't even realize it. But You will fix me. You have begun Your work. You have broken me and made me softer. Lord, when it comes to matters of the Heart, I don't know what to do. I need guidance. I want to be a good woman. I want to be a woman a man can be proud of. Teach me, Lord. And I pray for the right man for me. If he's here, Lord, make me sure. If he's not, Lord, please bring him to me soon. But make me decisive. I am hurting people with my indecision. There are three men right now but I am unsure for all of them. Does that mean I have to let go of all of them? Or do I choose from one of them? I am unsure, Lord. I dislike being indecisive but I can't decide, Lord! This is the rest of my life after all. Am I in love with any of them? I have a crush with one, I kinda like one, and the third is good man. What must I do, Lord?

Lord, perfect what You started in me. Make me a good woman. A confident beautiful healthy decisive woman who will take care of a man's heart. As I stand right now, I will only hurt them. Help me, Lord.

He Will Complete His Work

"... being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Philippians 1:6 NIV)

"The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever; Do not forsake the works of Your hands." (Psalms 138:8 NKJV)

Dear Lord,

I had forgotten this. I had forgotten that You had called me years ago, You had called me to You, for Your purposes, Your pleasure, Your glory. I was broken and unlovable, but You, O Lord, promised. And You who promised are faithful. You have promised that You would perfect that which concerns me. I am awkward, unsure, afraid, with so little faith, but You have started the good work in me. You have made me gentler, kinder, more conscientious. I'm still quite a way off, but You will complete the work You have started in me. You are sovereign. And I am Yours. My very name declares Your oath, your promise. I suddenly just thought of something, Lord. Since my name means "God's Promise." Have You promised me to somebody? Am I Your promise to someone? That would be so romantic. May I think of romantic things, Lord? I'm always so afraid theses days. It may not be the case but I can't help but feel like I've been punished for wishing for romance. Change this heart, Lord. Free me from worry and fear. Let me love, let me wish, let me dream again. And let me be Yours. Be always with me, my God. I want to be in love with You. I want to be in awe of You. Save me like a hero. Protect me like a father. Love me. And let me be Yours. Be my God. And show me the paths I need to take. Show me how to show You that I love You. Make my heart kind and gentle and confident so that I will please You. Give me faith that I may please You. You've given me trials, but I don't know how to increase my faith during those trials. I'm miserable during the trials. But You told me to rejoice. I need a heart change, Lord. And I can't do it alone. I resubmit my life to You this morning. I want to live the life of freedom You promise. I want to be in love and in awe of You. Make my heart young again. Come in to my heart and expel all the demo sa na the darkness they bring. Shine in my heart, that I will shine as well in You.

Lord, I pray for my finances. Thank You for the referral by James. You are an awesome God. I pray that we get it. Grant it to us, my God, if You will it. And I also pray that we get Petron and Jollibee. Please empower my people that they may do great in the projects I have given them. Please bless us in Komikasi financially that we can thrive as a company. I met wilth Geiser Maclang yesterday. I pray for wisdom. If they could really help us with next year, that would be really great. But Lord, I don't want to make any wrong decisions for this company. Enlighten me. Give me wisdom and discernment. Speak to me somehow and let me know what Your will is in this endeavor. 

I pray also for a man. I submit myself to You, Lord, becuase I've chosen before and it wasn't good. I need Your guidance. I pray for a good man, Lord. One who would take care of me, who I can talk to about You, who would love me and who I could submit to and respect. Someone I would be excited to live the rest of my life with. Someone who would build a good and godly family with me. Someone strong in heart, Lord. Someone maalaga. I put my trust in You, Lord. You wouldn't show me things and deprive me of them, for You are a good God. I will have faith in You that You have not forgotten me.

Thank You, and this I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Morning Prayer

Dear Lord,

Thank You for today. Thank You for the opportunities You've sent my way. Lord, I pray for my health. Please heal me. I also pray for the awards night. We need help with finances, Lord. I pray that ICTO release the money soon. Thank You for the bid at FGL. Lord, teach me to handle my company. Give me strength. Give me joy.

This day I lift to You, my God. Bless it and help me be a blessing. This I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Malicious Tongue

Dear Lord,

Forgive me. I succumbed to the darkness and spoke of ill of You, claiming I don't know if You'll save me or not, when You've always saved me. I don't understand myself, Lord. I don't think it's about the money per se. But there's something wrong with me. Is it the feeling of the lack of control, Lord. I know I should surrender control to You, for You who has promised is faithful. You're not usually early, but You're never late. You have Your timing. Lord, You've given me so much. Loyal people. A family who loves me. Why am I speaking death to myself? My mouth is an open grave, Lord. I don't know what to think, Lord. Things are going well, lord. Why am I feeling bad? This has nothing to do with my finances, I think. But I feel cluttered. I feel overwhelmed with what is expected of me. But I shouldn't be. It's not that big. I have punished myself somehow that I don't do anything for fun anymore.

Lord, forgive me. Forgive this malicious tongue and heart. Please don't punish me. Turn not away from me. Be my God, still. And forgive me, Father. I am so sorry. Let me try to present my body once more as a holy and living sacrifice to You. I will rejoice today, Lord, as You've commanded. I will try again, Lord. Please cast away the spirit of darkness from my heart. Shine Your light in my heart that my joy may be complete.

This, I humbly pray in the Name of Your Son, Jesus Christ. Amen.

Stagnant Waters

Lord, I thank You for a wonderful family and for the opportunities You have given me. But, Lord, in Your Son's Name, may I ask You for something? Give us joy in our hearts. I see the same stagnation in Mom and Marie as well. Does it run in my family, Lord? While we're not really depressed, we are unhappy, Lord. And for no particular reason. Maybe because we're overwhelmed with the responsibilities, but at the same time, maybe we're bored with the routine. We have forgotten our bliss. We have forgotten awe and wonder. What must we do, Lord? Lord, hear my plea. Hear my cry, my request. I ask, Lord. So that our joy will be complete. Complete our joy, Lord. Spark anticipation and awe in our hearts again. Excite us once more, my God. You are the God of Wonder. You have done great things, but we do not see. I am blind, Lord. Open my eyes. I need to see Your handiwork. I need to see the awesome and impressive things you've done. I need to see the greatness in Your creation. I need to be overwhelmed with awe that my body could do nothing but acknowledge You and exclaim, "Oh, my God!" as I am dwarfed by its beauty and magnitude.

Stir these stagnant waters that are our hearts, Lord. Teach us to care, teach us to see. Awake the awe in us again. Humble us with Your wonder. And send me, Lord. Send me on a mission somewhere. Give me a purpose. Show me clearly, my God, that I have a point.

Give us joy in our hearts, dear God. This I ask in the Name of Your Son, Jesus Christ. Amen.

Morning Prayer

In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. (Psalm 5:3 NIV)

Dear Lord,

Thank You for a family who loves me. 

Lord, this darkness has been persistent. It has been eating at me for the past three years. Please take me out of the dark, Lord. I know, the tomb is open and I'm the one who's not coming out of it. But I seem to have forgotten how. I have shut off. I have shut off pleasure after I had been hurt. I have shut off dreams after the death of my own dreams. I say I have moved on but my heart is hole-ridden. My world is colorless. I no longer hurt, Lord, but then I no longer feel, Lord. In hard times, I am angry. In good times, I am indifferent.

Lord, I have a request. I have a prayer, a favor to ask. Lord, give me joy in my heart. I know this is in line with Your will. You've been telling me to rejoice. But my heart just has no energy to truly smile. You tell me to rejoice, Lord. Then, please, light the spark. Maybe I've never truly been joyful when I was young. My default face was never a smiling one.

Lord, I also thank You for the opportunity with Bulkypix. I pray for Your presence and blessing in this endeavor. There's also Eyetem, Epic Nomz, Loupe, Combi, Eclipse and Sum-It, products we've been developing, Lord. Thank You for helping us, Lord, and for sending us OJTers who actually finish things. Lord, give me the positive outlook to appreciate these. Excite me once more, Lord. Wake my heart. Open my eyes. Take my hand and take me out of the grave I'm in. I can't seem to stand up and walk out on my own. Let my people see. Let my family see that I appreciate and enjoy them for You have given them to me. I'm so ungrateful. But I don't want to be. Take me out of the dark, my Lord. I don't want to be there.

And I will wait. For You have told me to wait. Wait for You for You are faithful. I will wait, Lord. For You are my God. I am Yours created for Your pleasure and purposes. Amen.